today was one of those days where i had so much to do and was so overwhelmed that i just shut down, gave up, and sat on tumblr/ate ice cream/watched tv/accomplished nothing. and it’s not like it actually felt GOOD, like i was relaxing or enjoying myself, it was just the feeling of avoidance and pure inertia because the idea of beginning to tackle my to-do list made me wanna cry. like, i’m all for self-care and think it’s important, and i also super suck at doing it and being intentional about it. instead i over-schedule and over-extend myself to the point where i think i’m going to go crazy and then my body & brain shut down. its a fucked up and shitty cycle.
i did get to have tea with a friend today and i slept 12 hours last night so that was lovely.